How do you decide who should and shouldn’t be a part of your life? What really is right and wrong in that situation? Sometimes we want things that are so illogical that it would drive any sane person mad. I know someone from my past isn’t good for me, yet I leave the door open for them to come waltzing back in, and when I am encountered with a new person that has the potential to be good for me, I shut them out and don’t even want to give them the time of day. It’s as if something in my gut is telling me to stay away from new possibilities that could also lead to new heartbreak and disappoint and run right back to almost certain disappointment. I don’t get it, why am I like this? Why are any of us like this?
I know I’m not the only one because several of my good friends have the same issues. We don’t know how to deal with it or figure out the right answer because other people will just tell us to shut the “bad” people out and move on with our lives but that’s definitely not what we want to hear nor do. It just doesn’t feel right, not when it was someone you loved more than anything at one point, maybe even still do. So all we’re left with is nothing but confusion because once we begin to think we’re understanding ourselves and our own reasoning is when that person comes right back to mess it all up and throw common sense out the window. I guess that’s just the part of growing up, figuring situations like this out or maybe accepting we never will.